I'M SORRY !! :(

satu kata yg sekarang pengen ku bilang naah ..

I'M SORRY ! I DON'T MIND TO HURT YOU..

I am SORRY .. :(

catatan ini buat temenku SISCA SANTICA.. Maap  kan aku sisca, aku ngk maksud buat nyakitin perasaanmu, sumpaah ngak ada mksud :(
awalnya mmg pngen buat kmu bisa sama" breng dy, ngk ada niat sma skali buat yg lain, wlaupun mmg kmu tau, awalnya itu jg buat supaya dy ngk sma" lgi sma ssi anu ..

tapi aku jg bngung knpa timbul lg rasa yg 3 tahun kku pendam sendri..
Yaa Allah, maapkan aku.. aku MALU dgn diriku sendiri ..

mapkan aku sisca, aku mau brusaha jauh dri dia, tp ngk bisa..
tolong kasi alasan knpa aku ngk bisa sis ? :(

aku nd mau nyakiti kau..
NDA MAUUU !!

kau sdh seperti sodaraku sendrii sis, maapkan aku naah .. maap maap maap maap !! :(

Aku bngung sdh mo  bilang apa lgi sis, maap kan aku sisca..
maap :(
Memang mungkin nda pantas kam berteman sma aku , mapkan aku sisca, MAAP !!

klo mmg kam mau sma dy, ndaa ppa koq, aku ikhlas lahir batin..
aku cuma cukup ngagumi dia aja, ngk lebihh..
MAAP !!
MAAP !!
MAAP !!
MAAP !!
MAAP !!         

Percuma mmg aku ucapkan maap klo yg sudah terjadii..

aku janji ciis, aku cukup ngagumin aja, DIA TETAP MILIKMU, oke?

maaap kan aku yaa :(
MAAF ..

♥ When You Love Someone ♥

Singer : Natalia Erwina,

the song is for you Ray Erikson Paduli
I ♥ You So Much :*

By. Woman who Loved You so'much *iinjanepparengga*

MaluMaluMau :'D

duet wif Shinta Shandy :*

Surprizze Buat Lo , Dorprizze Buat Gue !

semlam tepat tanggal 11 Agustus 2011 , surprizze buat lo, yg mnurut gue siih gag gmnamna bgd :D

awalnya gue pngen nangis liat muke lo yg cmberut kyk bebek lg sembelit, ihh BTin..
gue tau smlam lo ngk hepy..
aaaaaargh !

bgmna mmulai cerita ini laah ..
mngkin bsa d blg ini perjuangan untuk mmbuat ssorg tidak mrasa sndri d hari ulangtahunnya :')

kmarin tpat jam 8 malam, tnggl 11 August '11, seorg bocah lelaki jangkung mndapat surprizze..
awalnya gue dan tmen" gue [ cinoy , sisin ] brtiga laah kmi d Tepian Mahakam..
walopun surprizze cuma kue sbji, tp ane cenatcenut tolaah ngasihnya :D

krna mmg kami sdh siap sdia d tepian, dtanglaah si bocah yg berulang tahun, awalnya mukanya bener" ngeselin, ngk tau dy jengkel ato apa, mukanya masam bgd, KECUT kyk mangga QUINI ..
d tambah lagi kmi hrus nggu seorg artis india ARMAN DAHLAN, d saat" mnegangkan sperti itu, dgn sngat santai nya dy sms * Tunggu bntar, aku BOKER dulu *

W A W !!
apaan cba, dy kda tau po yg lg ulangtaon ini udh kyk bebek sembelit mukanya..
ngguin arman boker skitar 15 menit, trus d tmbah lg prjalanan arman k tepian 15 menit totalan SETENGAH JAM ! BT BT BTin ..

naah, acra intinya adalah, pmberian KUE ULANG TAON :D
hahah, kmi sdh mrencanakannya dri awal, arman yg artis sinetron handal, mmulai laah aktingnya, saat dy dan arman asik ngobrol dari blakang kmi mmunculkan wujud asli dri ssi kue..
tarrrrrrrrraaaaa :D *kuenya ngk smpat d poto :'(, map*

ngk tau prasaannya gmna..
hahha, kuenya jg ngk pke lilin, cma pke korek gas, yg d nyalain, entah knpa angin mlam itu bersahabat bgd, haha

abis Make a Wish, smpailah d acra dy mniup lilinnya..
abis d tiup trus d potong daah :D
kuenya enaaaaaaak ! kga salah emg gue beli d t4 itu, Kualitas Hotel bintang5, Harga Kaki5.. haha


trus abis ceritacerita bntar, kmi jln br4, sisin udh plg deluan, biasa ank mami :D
haha
awalnya gue ngk mau satu mtor ama tu bocah, tp krna d pksa, dgn sangat trpksa ane mauu ..

pas lg d jln, dy mnta d tlponin Arman krna kmi misah, krna gue ngk ada plsa, jd gue pke hape dy..
d stulaah gue curi" kesempatan buat cri tau isi hapenya..
dan trnyataaaa, gue bca sms dri ssi Ayu Ainda blabla itu, *kga hapal gue namanya,dan ngk pnting jg buat d hapalin*

mata gue lngsung tebelalak, dan air mata gue kluar scra otomatis tnpa aa remoute controlnya ! arrrrgh ANJENG bgd !
gue esmosi esteler esdawet ! :(

djalan gue brusaha bgd nyembunyiin air mata gue dri dy..
dan pda akhirnya smpailah kmi d sebuah warung lesehan yg mnyediakan ROKO ARAB !
saddddddaaap bgd, abis ngroko itu, serasa idup d dunia MAYA estianti :D
hahahaha

gue lupa sm lo, lupalupalupa !
hahah


[besokbesok kita ksna lg yaa guys, tp Tanpa ERIK]
gue pngen nglepas stress gue !

ampe rumah, mulailaah si jangkung itu sms, biasa org kampung abis ngroko arab, plgplg palanya pusiing :D
hahaha

dan ada sedikit kutipan sms kami yg seperti ini :
Erik : Ku kda nilai dr kue'a tp prjuangan kam, makasih lah ?

aaaaarrrrgh ! asli gue seneng ..
ILU bertubitubi, thanks God, thanks !
katakatanya bkin SEMERIWIIING :D
haha

gue jg bungung mo d kasi judul apa ?

hari ini gue baru sadar, kalo rasa syg seseorg itu ngk bakal bisa bertahan lama ke org yang sama..
hari ini juga gue baru bener" ngrasain gmna rasanya yg bener" terpukul dan merasa sendiri..


gue sadar apa yg lo katakan harihari kmarin itu mmg dari lo, tp bukan lo yg skrg !
gue akui hari ini gue netesin air mata gue siasia, buat lo yg ngk pernah tau gmna rasax itu, gue cuma cba untuk memahami, knpa dsaat semuanya terasa nyaman, lo dgn santainya, PERGI MENJAUH !


smpe skrg kata *NUY* panggilan syg lo ke gue, masih terngiang..
gue kgn lo pnggil gue Nuy lg, gue kgn mnggil lo AA' lg..
gue kgn lo pegang tngan gue, gue kgn lo bisik k telinga gue, gue kgn lo bantu gue buat jalan naik k rumah, gue kgn nemenin lo belanja, gue kgn semuamuanya dari lo.. bahkan gue kgn bgd saat lo mmbuat lelucon d dpan gue dan teman"..
gue kgn bgd sma lo aa' ..


gue tau ngk sahrusnya gue pke pnggilan itu lg buat lo, krna gue tau lo skrg dah pux dia, org yg lo syg !
gue ngk tau knpa hari kmarin itu lo ngasih harapan k gue, napa lo biarin gue seneng dgn perasaaan ini..
knpa lo minta gue buat jujur klo gue syg sm lo, yg ujung"x, lo tinggalin gue kyk gini :(


sakit bgd rasanya gue di giniin :'(


hari ini BornDay lo yg k 18th, gue cuma mau minta sma Tuhan, spya lo slalu d lindungi, lo slalu d beri ksehatan, lo slalu d buat senang krna gue ngk mau liat lo sakit, sedih ..


gue ampe ingat hari Jum'at kmrin wktu lo bonceng gue buat prgi nnton, itu hari trakhir gue ketemu lo.. lo ceritain semua keluh kesah lo, lo ceritain semua masalah lo ke gue, dan gue merasa hari itu guedeket bgd sm lo..
krna smpe skrg gue liat muka lo d jlanan aja kgak.. SUMPE gue miss yu bgd :(
wktu itu kita mau prgi nnton, gue lo dan slah satu temen kta, mo nnton serial Harry Potter 7 yg baruu, smpe d bioskop lo dudk d smping gue.. lo tanggalkan jaket daan dgn santainya lo nnton.. gue cuma bsa snyum liat lo asik bgd nntonnya.. gue seneng karna bisa buat lo snang hari itu..
gue ngk tau lo sngaja ato ngk, lo megang tangan gue, dan gue seneng bgd tauk !
lo bilang lo kdinginan, dan pda saat itu gue yg sedang pke jaket lo, nwarin jaket lo balik..
"mau pke jaketnya lg ngk ?" , dan lo cma mmbalas kata" gue dgn "ngak ppa, pake aja" ..
gue senng lo perhatian sm gue, slama acranya d mulai, asli gue senng bgd ..


dan trnyata itu kesenangan gue yg terakhir..
slepas itu gue dgn sngat trpaksa hryus terus menerus, netesin air mata gue ..
lo lo lo lo dan lo yg skrg ada d pkiran gue..


gue smpah ngk bisa jauh dari lo..
pliiiis jgn giniin gue :(




*Tuhan, hari ini ulangtahunnya yg k 18th, berikan dy slalu kesehatan, berikan dy slalu semangat, jgn buat dy sedih, jgn buat dy jatuh.. hiasi hari"nya dgn rsa senang, jgn biarkn tergores kata kesedihan d setiap ucap bibirnya.. jgn biarkan dy sedih :(
Tuhan, hari ini aku hanya mminta permohonan kecil padamu, buatlah dy bahagia Tuhan, krna aku ngk snggup liat raut wajah sedihnya..*

Hpy BirthDay RAY ERIKSON PADULI !
wish you all the best :')

Like We Used To !

I can feel his breath as he's sleeping next to me
Sharing pillows and cold feet
He can feel my heart, fell asleep to its beat
Under blankets and warm sheets

If only I could be in that bed again
If only it were me instead of her

Does she watch your favorite movies?
Does she hold you when you cry?
Does she let you tell her all your favorite parts?
When you've seen it a million times

Does she sing to all your music
While you dance to "Purple Rain"?
Does she do all these things
Like I used to?

14 months and 7 days ago
Oh, I know you know how we felt about that night
Just your skin against the window
But we took it slow and we both know

It shoulda been me inside that car
It should have been me instead of her in the dark

Does she watch your favorite movies?
Does she hold you when you cry?
Does she let you tell him all your favorite parts
When you've seen it a million times?

Does she sing to all your music
While you dance to 'Purple Rain'?
Does she do all these things
Like I used to?

I know, love
*Well, I'm a sucker for that feeling*
Happens all the time, love
*I always end up feeling cheated*
You're on my mind, love
*Oh sorta let her when I need it*
That happens all the time, love, yeah

Will she love you like I loved you?
Will she tell you everyday?
Will she make you feel like you're invincible
With every word she'll say?

Can you promise me if this was right?
Don't throw it all away

Can you do all these things?
Will you do all these things
Like we used to?
Oh, like we used to

Who Says ? : me ! so ? :

I wouldn't wanna be anybody else.
Hey!
You made me insecure,
Told me I wasn't good enough.
But who are you to judge
When you're a diamond in the rough.
I'm sure you got some things
You'd like to change about yourself.
But when it comes to me,
I wouldn't wanna be anybody else.


Na na na na na na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na na na na na na na
I'm no beauty queen.
I'm just beautiful me.


Na na na na na na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na na na na na na na


You've got every right
To a beautiful life.
C'mon on!


Who says?
Who says you're not perfect?
Who says you're not worth it?
Who says you're the only one that's hurting?
Trust me,
That's the price of beauty.
Who says you're not pretty?
Who says you're not beautiful?
Who says?


It's such a funny thing
How nothing's funny when it's you.
You tell 'em what you mean,
But they keep whiting out the truth.
It's like a work of art
That never gets to see the light.
Keep you beneath the stars,
Won't let you touch the sky.


Na na na na na na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na na na na na na na
I'm no beauty queen.
I'm just beautiful me.


Na na na na na na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na na na na na na na


You've got every right
To a beautiful life.
C'mon on!


Who says?
Who says you're not perfect?
Who says you're not worth it?
Who says you're the only one that's hurting?
Trust me,
That's the price of beauty.
Who says you're not pretty?
Who says you're not beautiful?
Who says?


Who says you're not star potential?
Who says you're not presidential?
Who says you can't be in movies?
Listen to me, listen to me.
Who says you don't pass the test?
Who says you can't be the best?
Who said?
Who said?
Won't you tell me who said that?
Yeah, oh
Who said?


Who says?
Who says you're not perfect?
Who says you're not worth it?
Who says you're the only one that's hurting?
Trust me,
That's the price of beauty.
Who says you're not pretty?
Who says you're not beautiful?
Who says?


Who says?
Who says you're not perfect?
Who says you're not worth it?
Who says you're the only one that's hurting?
Trust me,
That's the price of beauty.
Who says you're not pretty?
Who says your not beautiful?
Who says?

More lyrics: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/s/selena_gomez/#share

“If you can make a girl laugh, you can make her do anything.”

ChalteChalte

Pyaar Hum Ko Bhi Hai
Pyaar Tum Ko Bhi Hai
To Yeh Kya Silsile Ho Gaye 
Bewafa Hum Nahin
Bewafa Tum Nahin
To Kyon Itne Gile Ho Gaye
Chalte Chalte Kaise Yeh Faasle Ho Gaye
Kya Pata Kahan Hum Chale 
Pyaar Hum Ko Bhi Hai
Pyaar Tum Ko Bhi Hai
To Yeh Kya Silsile Ho Gaye 
Bewafa Hum Nahin
Bewafa Tum Nahin
To Kyon Itne Gile Ho Gaye
Chalte Chalte Kaise Yeh Faasle Ho Gaye
Kya Pata Kahan Hum Chale 

Pyaar Hum Ko Bhi Hai
Pyaar Tum Ko Bhi Hai
To Yeh Kya Silsile Ho Gaye 
Bewafa Hum Nahin
Bewafa Tum Nahin
To Kyon Itne Gile Ho Gaye
Chalte Chalte Kaise Yeh Faasle Ho Gaye
Kya Pata Kahan Hum Chale 

Duniya Jo Pooche To Kya Hum Kahen
Koi Yeh Humko Samjaade
Thes Lagi To Pal Mein Toot Gaye
Sheshe Ke The Kya Sab Vaade
Jaata Hai Koi Kyon Sapno Ko Thukraake
Payega Yeh Dil Kya Kisi Ko Batake
Chalte Chalte Raakh Hum Bin Jale Ho Gaye
Bujh Gaye Diye Pyaar Ke
Pyaar Hum Ko Bhi Hai
Pyaar Tum Ko Bhi Hai
To Yeh Kya Silsile Ho Gaye 

Doob Gaya Hai Kaise Dard Mein Dil
Aansoon Bhari Hai Ab Aankhen
Tanhaiyon Ki Jo Ruth Aa Gayi
Ujdi Hui Hai Sab Raahein
Socha Tha Paayenge Dono Ek Manzil Ko
Raahein Jo Badli To Tumhi Batado
Chalte Chalte Gum Kahan Kaple Ho Gaye
Kho Gaye Kahan Raste
Pyaar Hum Ko Bhi Hai
Pyaar Tum Ko Bhi Hai
To Yeh Kya Silsile Ho Gaye 
Bewafa Hum Nahin
Bewafa Tum Nahin
To Kyon Itne Gile Ho Gaye
Chalte Chalte Kaise Yeh Faasle Ho Gaye
Kya Pata Kahan Hum Chale 
Kya Pata Kahan Hum Chale

This is not my heart, because my heart is always the same for you ! :)

Mungkin IYA cuma KAMU !

mendung, gelap, dan basaah..
terasaa dingin air hujan mnetes k telapak tangaan..

sjenak mnutup mata, dan berharap saat kku buka mataku kembali, kau duduk d depanku, mngusap dahiku, dan berkata " TAK PERLU TAKUT, AKU SLALU DISINI UNTUKMU"..

tapii smuanya hilang saat terang kembali masuk pada kelopak mataku, srsa mimpii dgn brjuta angan..

mngkin skrg kau sdh bahagia brsama dgn apa yg kau miliki, tp suatu saat akan kku buktikan, bahwa mulai dari awal hingga akhir pencinta, aku tidak akan mnyerah untukmu..

3blan yg berlalu serasa sprti detikdetik kosong yg tak berarti, yg seharusnya mnjadi brmkna, tbuang siasia, bgai SAMPAH !

sore inii, mnjadi sbuah alasan dmna aku dapat mmbuka kataku, aku ingin kau bahagia, tak ingin kau tersakiti..
PEJAMKANLAH MATAMU, dan RASAKANLAH, hembusan angin sore ini..

cinta ini sesak dan mmbawaku pada rasa yg tak pasti, rasa yg mnyayangimu, tak ttap tak menentu ! :)

Tujh Mein Rab Dikhta Hai

Tu hi toh jannat meri, Tu hi mera junoon

Tu hi to mannat meri, Tu hi rooh ka sukoon
Tu hi aakhion ki thandak, tu hi dil ki hai dastak
Aur kuch na janu mein, bas itna hi jaanu
Tujh mein rab dikhta hai
Yaara mein kya karu
Tujh mein rab dikhta hai
Yaara mein kya karu
Sajdhe sar jukhta hai
Yaara mein kya karu
Tujh mein rab dikhta hai
Yaara mein kya karu

O..

Kaisi hai yeh doori, kaisi majboori
Meine nazron se tujhe choo liya
Oh ho ho Kabhi teri khusboo
Kabhi teri baatein
Bin mange yeh jahan pa liya
Tu hi dil ki hai raunak,
Tu hi janmo ki daulat
Aur kuch na janoo
Bas itna hi janoo
Tujh mein rab dikhta hai
Yaara mein kya karu

Tujh mein rab dikhta hai
Yaara mein kya karu
Sajdhe sar jukhta hai
Yaara mein kya karuo
Tujh mein rab dikhta hai
Yaara mein kya karuo

Vasdi vasdi vasdi, dil di dil vich vasdi
Nasdi nasdi nasdi, dil ro ve te nasdi
Rab N..  Bana Di Jodi..
Vasdi vasdi vasdi, dil di dil vich vasdi
Nasdi nasdi nasdi, dil ro ve te nasdi

Cham cham aaye, mujhe tarsaye
Tera saaya ched ke chumta
Oh ho ho… tu jo muskaye
Tu jo sharmaye
Jaise mera hai khuda jhumta
Tu hi meri hai barkat, tu hi meri ibadat
Aur kuch na janu, bas itna hi janu
Tujh mein rab dikhta hai
Yaara mein kya karu
Tujh mein rab dikhta hai
Yaara mein kya karu
Sajdhe sar jukhta hai
Yaara mein kya karu
Tujh mein rab dikhta hai
Yaara mein kya karu

Vasdi vasdi vasdi, dil di dil vich vasdi
Nasdi nasdi nasdi, dil ro ve te nasdi
Rab Ne Bana Di Jodi..

♡  I Always Love You♡

Increasingly Better

Feel closer even though you away, Feels more beautiful though look shabby, I Love You from the beginning until the end of the day.